Mess up as everything else
What am i going to blog about? Lately, life's being a mess. Things are happening so fast that I don't know how to react. Words start to fail me. Alzheimir's? I can't even string words together to finish this blog... My thoughts are jumbled up and totally stuck on the inner walls of my skull. It feels like the only way to get my thoughts organised is to drill a hole in my head, take all of them out and position them by hand. And I sure hope it was that easy... My soul has left my body and I to be the empty shell that we was fated to be... No feeling of completeness all together.
I don't even understand myself. Am I fit to understand others? How can I ever hope to qualify to be a psycologist? And I am forced to ask myself the question: Does one follows one's mind or heart? The devil and the angel that should be my conscience would pop out to answer this question with uncomparable zeal. They would always disagree with each other and the question would be left unanswered. I asked myself this question on many sleepless nights. Some people inform me about my hair greying out rapidly. Perhaps I could have a head of grey hair overnight. Blah blah blah...
Maybe I have a case of phronemophobia or arithmophobia or even bibliophobia, or perhaps all 3 of these together. That would explain why words are failing me and thoughts are playing tricks on me. It could even explain why I do badly in school. Maybe I can just step up to Mr Ho and tell him:" Sir, my doctor dignosed that I suffer from phronemophobia, epistemophobia, arithmophobia and bibliophobia. He thought it would be nice for me to inform you." Haha, that would have been fun.
Talking about phobias, I am surprised to learn that there is even one named hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia which would be the fear for lengthy words. What irony. Then a person with the above mentioned phobia would probably never go to Thailand, Buangkok, ever if I was to tell him that the city's real name is Krungthep Mahanakhon Bovorn Ratanakosin Mahintharayutthaya Mahadilokpop Noparatratchathani Burirom Udomratchanivet Mahasathan Amornpiman Avatarnsathit Sakkathattiyavisnukarmprasit, meaning the 'City of Angels'. Whew, what a long name. And there is even arachibutyrophobia, which is the fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth.HAha. Oops, I think I suddenly contacted logophobia, so I will have to end here. Fun playing with words....
posted by the_Naked_Soul @ 3/09/2005 06:20:00 AM
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